cannot taste sweet (an old sad one)

i have no convictions.

i said no
to cake today.

no longer tasting sweet...

i thought i'd say
no.

i thought i saw you catalogue my faults as you were leaving

number them 1 thru 25

and shove them into your glove compartment

with an old pack of cigarettes.

i thought i saw you forget me like an MDMA dream-

remember your front door

and scuffle down a dark hallway.

i thought i saw you toss off your pants
lean in the shower
and rinse away my DNA.

i thought i saw you dive into clean sheets

whispering
as you held her to sleep.

i know i came for you that night in your dream.

i took you by the hand

and led you up and out and over

to an ocean's edge.

we walked down cool black sand
our favorite songs washed ashore

we ate dessert

and we liked each other.

we laughed at the absurdity

of needing nite lites

to crease the darkness
of our own familiar hallways.

i have no convictions.

i said no
to cake today

and i do remember that i loved it.